Antipathy

'Follow your heart',
The saying goes,
My opposing's opposite is my comrade,
Making me loath,

The very part,
That should be my existence,
Instead created me a nomad,
Of endless persistence,

Looking to achieve,
The being of all I can be,
Dividing soul and spirit,
Like a river's broken levy,

Rushing to leave,
The very knowledge of happiness,
Wither I should enjoy or fear it,
In all it's greatness.

My antipathy!
My antipathy!
The soul at war with the heart,
Darkness driving the light apart.
Desires and lust hard driven,
Desecrating lovin', livin',
Wishing I could cry,
So my life, to me, would not be a lie.

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Please lie to me,
Tell me of my life's exterior,
Tell me of the key,

Of where I could fall,
Into my own disillusion,
Of love and happiness,
Letting me draw conclusions,

Today is love,
Tomorrow is happiness,
And the future is full of life,
But through wariness,

I am given a shove,
Into a darkened pit,
Of hatred and strife,
Where the light was once lit.

My antipathy!
My antipathy!
The soul at war with the heart,
Darkness driving the light apart.
Desires and lust hard driven,
Desecrating lovin', livin',
Wishing I could cry,
So my life, to me, would not be a lie.

Money.
Desires.
Lusts.
These things are my conflict!
Driving me to divide my personality,
From what was created as perfect,
So I could have a sense of livability.

My antipathy!
My antipathy!
The soul at war with the heart,
Darkness driving the light apart.
Desires and lust hard driven,
Desecrating lovin', livin',
Wishing I could cry,
So my life, to me, would not be a lie.